Page 55 of Lessons In Grey

My eyes fell shut as we swayed toDo it for MebyRosenfeld.

The lyrics slid into my bones as my body melted against his, as his head dipped into my shoulder, his breath feathering the hair around my ear.

I was in a state of bliss I barely understood. My heart was doing its own thing, my breathing barely keeping me alive as the euphoria of his presence seeped into my soul.

That’s what this was, his euphoria.

My eyes burned, my throat filling as I fell into this feeling. Fuck, I missed this. Just being held, Imissedit. Charlie had been the last person to hold me close, the very last person I had ever let touch me for more than a few seconds. I guess I never realized how right Rags was that night outside the gas station.

We needed socialization and I needed people.

It wasn’t lost on me that I had almost died last night, and tonight I was dancing to this song in a haunted hall of the school with the man everyone around campus either wanted to be orfuck.

He had kept me from spiraling last night. Spiraling more than I had. Every word, every action, it was all deliberate. He was so confident and decisive and fuck, his mind was just as tragic and fucked up as mine was.

He was right, we were fucking inevitable.

I swallowed, digging my nails into his shoulder, needing him closer. I never wanted to let him go. If he was touching me, every other thought disappeared. My ghosts and his demons were too busy flirting with each other to bother with us. My head was silent, and my skin was on fire, and I didn’t ever want to lose that.

But eventually, the sun had to come up and all of this, it would all turn into nothing more than a memory.

“Say my name,” Rags mumbled along with the lyrics. “All I wanna do is hear you scream in pain, say my name.”

A desperate half-moan that caused my heart to pound and my stomach to splinter in warmth and craving. Fuck. He had caught me in his orbit, and I wanted to suffocate within it. “Grey,” I breathed out before I lost the nerve.

His hands tightened around me, pulling me into him, his head dipping until I felt his hot breath graze my skin. His nose brushed over the underside of my jaw, my body melting at the touch, my head angling up, wanting to give him all the access I knew he craved.

I felt his lips part a second before he pressed them against the sensitive flesh under my ear, pulling a breathless gasp from my soul, and then his teeth grazed across my skin.

I pulled myself closer, standing on my tiptoes, biting my lip against the shiver running across my skin.

He sunk his teeth in and sucked hard.

I couldn’t help the quiet moan that he ripped from me as he sucked and nipped, releasing that spot only to run his tongue over it, soothing the sudden ache.

Shit, I was fucking hooked.

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Grey

October 10th, 2021

Ineeded more. She was better than nicotine, she waseverything. Every substance any man had ever been addicted to across all of space and time, she was the most potent of them all, and she was all fucking mine.

Emily was an addiction I wanted to drown myself in.

She was the thing I’d lose everything for. I had but a taste of her skin, and Ineeded more. I would never get enough of her.

I wanted to get so lost in the seams of her soul that Malachi had no other option than to drop his knees and beg me to go to rehab.

She stood on her tiptoes as if she wanted to jump up and wrap her legs around my hips, and fuck if I wasn’t pleading for her to do it. Totake that step.

But I knew it wasn’t the time. Not today. Not yet.

Even so, I hope she knew that I was never going to leave this city again. She had me by the goddamn cock, and I swear to God, I was begging her to squeeze tighter.

I pressed my lips against her soft skin again, feeling her shiver against me, her nails digging into my shirt as her breathing became broken and ragged. If this was what such a small amount of me did to her, what would happen when I gave her all of me?